Flattened by Thoughts

Before you actually go through the experience yourself, things seem so easy.  But once the situation happens to you, everything changes.  Things you thought once were are not, and people who you thought once were are different now.  The perception of your world is different once you experience something life-changingly new.  I've always thought love was an easy process that just happened because it was meant to be, no questions asked, but after being put into the actual dilemma, everything changed, and the once-was simple and understandable love, became much more than just that.  The drama revolving around it, the looks from other people, and the judgement in other peoples' eyes--you can see it all.  Every couple around you becomes more defined and important to compare against your relationship.  The looks they give you determine your world and perception of them too.  Everything changes.  And now, I feel lost. I've lost my understanding of everything in that world I once had built for myself.  Now, I have to build it again.  And find myself once again.